In meeting yet another health care professional that I had to explain Layla's story to I've been put into a time of reflection. Reliving the intense moments of this last year and then comparing them to where she is now I can honestly say it's night and day. As hard as it still is in some aspects there are others that are so easy. I never thought I'd be able to say that about my daughter. Seeing the joy on Layla's face so much more often, seeing her kick and punch, seeing her physical growth, it all makes me so happy. I can actually feel the love in my heart. Does that make sense? To physically feel the infatuation... yes I chose that word because it's like those in love butterflies you get on a first date (or for me, first date in a while with my husband). She seems to melt people hearts, which melts mine. Everyone loves her. I hope that doesn't change. I hope people will always feel love for her and not pity on us.
When I was explaining to a new specialist last week regarding Layla's improvements over the last 4 months and how we believe the G-tube was the best thing we could've done for her she decided to tell me how it's really not that much of an improvement. Isn't that kind of her? First off, she didn't know her at all prior to that appointment last week to have a comparison. Of COURSE I understand that in relation to other 14 month olds she is not even close to where they're at. But for HER she has significantly improved and I am going to hold onto that. Those kind of comments really do my head in. We've said it many times and I'll say it again, there are some doctors that missed out on sensitivity training. They are good with their work but not good with people.
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