Today marks a new beginning. Today I had my first two sessions of respite. One hour this morning and now one this afternoon. A truly sweet nurse showed up at my door excited to have some time with a baby in comparison to the usual elderly care that she does. Once I gave her the rundown of medications, the feeding pump and the ways of keeping Layla pleased I felt comfortable giving them some space and moved into the front room. Listening in I could hear songs being sung and little noises of enjoyment from Layla. And I thought I can get used to this.
With a deep breath in and out I felt a wave of peace. A small weight off my shoulders. She is in good hands. I intended on going out of the house to a coffee shop around the corner for a true break, out on my own. But after an incident with the feeding pump going off and the nurse not knowing how to fix it, I decided that she, nor I, am quite ready for that. Hopefully by next week we can get there. Baby steps, right?
This is only the beginning.
oh how sweet it is to get a break! You so deserve this Kaiti, enjoy your downtime and I hope as time goes on you really start feeling more weights fall off your shoulders!
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